I Don't Know (Random Happenings)
:sighs; It is never good to begin a post with a sigh. Yeah, it's really not. It is almost 1am, and I am not tired. Probably because I had an hour long nap (I think naps are under 30 minutes, or so I have been told.) I don't believe in power naps, because they are CORNY! A 15 mnute nap? Pfft! I set the alarm for 15 minutes (or so I thought I did) and ended up sleepng for quite some time, waking up 20 minues before my 335 class and jetting over to the cafeteria to get some coffee to jolt myself back to consciousness.Man.
All I ever seem to be is tired. It is like a plague slowly sneaking over me....I wish I could cure it. I have tried "pushing" through it, but it never works! I always cave in because I just cannot physically take it. This morning I thought I was going to pass out because I was so tired.
I am going to call my doctor about this when I see her next month!
Joy! September is almost over!
Sad! I still I have NO concrete grad school to apply to.
:sighs: It is not good to sigh half-way through ones post. At the end-yes, because it is warrented, but now, not so much.
One of my friends says it could be weight related-my tiredness. That is possible as I have gained weight over the summer (which I think is ironic, I gained over the summer and NOT in England...lol) I have been discouraged after my relentless desire to be and eat healthily I got depressing results. I don't know. I kind of give up on it. Just asmidge. Until something happens and I go on a "I must do it!' kick and the same will probably happen again....
Oh well.
Today, I finally told one of my friends that she was annoying me. It all came about as we sat in the cafeteria eating and I asked what she was doing this weekend. And she launches into this whole recap of what she had been doing over the past month (in which I was either not invited or went home because NO ONE informed me-Pfft!) Anyway, I finally said how I felt like people were not making the effort to include me. And she goes on this whole "If you would check your messages" shit (I don't check it TWICE and it suddently constitiutes as all the time-I hate when people do that shit) and I say this to her. I say, well if you are doing something, contact me.
And I finally said if you don't want to put in an effort, then by all means don't. I really could careless.
I was being honest and upfront. What I am going to loose? My ass is leaving anyway! Fuck that "nice" shit! I just said what was on my mind. But within complete bounds. At least, I believe.
So, this weekend, we are supposed to be watching The Godfather (who a friend loaned my by random acquaintance this afternoon-which was very nice. PLus, it was one of the examples used in out film class text, so I figured it would be useful. I do LOVE a young Al Pacino....I still think he is cute (in a rough and gruff way)
But anyway, I am still pesterd by how some people are in relationships, I am not. I mean, I just don't get it. I really don't.
What is WRONG with me????
I just want someone to call my own and who likes me! Why is this so difficult??
:sighs: (appropriately) I don't know anymore.....
Now I am exaughsted...time for sleep!
posted by The Eternal Student @ 1:13 AM
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