Hell or Paradise?
Got up this morning at what I thought was 8Am, (I think I looked at the clock wrong, and it was really 9Am) and said: get your ass to the gym! So, I was up, didn't want to be lazy and go get breakfast and sit on my comp "doing" work, or watching the t.v we just got, so I put on some clothes and went.It was hell.
Pure.Unaduturated. Hell.
Oh my god.
The elliptical (which I think is one of the best things for those who want excercise) is really hard. Even when I was a size 12 (I lost a LOT of weight my junnior-senior year, by doing portion control, drinking water, and getting about an hr excercise every day) and sixe 12 was confortable to me...I think because I am really short (5"2) when I would go to the gym (to loose even more weight-but I hit a plateau :-( Doing the elliptical machine was pretty bad (which is why I stuck to the treadmill, but it got boring) and well, I think all of a sudden I was gaining weight and its like I could not curb it, and just silently gave up :-(
But, it is true, if you loose, you gain back what you had and MORE. I am like the heaviest I have ever been. This is what my doctor says:
"You know, you are a very pretty girl, we just want to get your weight down"(notices how she uses the 'we" to make it appear as if I am not alone.
Me: I know! I have done it before, but I don't know...I've been trying and it just..I don't know, it never works. I am ambivalent towards it now. (notice how I say I have done ie before)
If I have the strength to continue on, doing 30 min everyday on the elliptical (maybe 2 days off or so depending) think of how much weight that can be off in December..that could be, if I stay on track, like 3o lbs by christmas! That would be hot. Really. So hot.
We shall see.
posted by The Eternal Student @ 10:01 AM
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