"I Don't Even Know Half Those People!"
Sometimes I wonder: what happened to the people I used to know? Like really, wtf happened to them? I don't even keep in contact with them anymore....some have become to superficial and arrogant for my liking. But these are people I have known since I was in 7th grade...J and L I'll call them. I suppose, now that I look back on it, J was always...I don't know....she was always looking for something else...whereever she was and whoever she was with was not enough...she was never satisfied. That gets tiring after a while. It really does. I think she feels that she has such more life experience than I do, so she doesn't really bother with me. But I don't think she knows that I cast her off a long time ago.L, well, L thinks that she is high and mighty right now. She is "changing" and is "NOT the same ol L, everyone used to know" and she makes sure everyone knows this. Only, I could really care less. I don't give a shit if she wants to do what she wants to do. So what! I don't know who she is really trying to prove herself too. That all gets tiring as well. Talking to someone who sole purpose in talking to you is trying to demonstrate who she no longer claims to be.
I used to be really close to 4 girls at school. But, They are always a bit too busy, or so they say, except for Meghan...who always e-mails me and is genuinely interested in what goes on my life and I in hers. I think she is one of the best people I have managed to meet at that school. The others all used to be really cool and interesting to me, but have somehow managed to have more negative qualities than positive. This is probably as I have not spoken to them in person for a while and have somehow lost a sense of who they are. I don't know...Studying here does that too you.
I just cannot wait to graduate from college, so that I can begin a new phase in my life. This phase has not been the best for me on a personal level. And I have not established relationships as best as I could...at least good ones.
I cannot believe I am going home in 3-4 weeks. Insane. We'll I'll miss the freedom I have had here....being able to hop on the tube when I want, to no answer to anyone...walk the streets alone of with people when I please....meeting people who have no other past history of me except the one that I present to them....I have met some funny people here...hilarious in fact!
I didn't realize that I had talked to so many people here until last night...when I looked on aim and there were a lot! Well, that is a good thing about here....whenever I think of London, Italy and Paris...I'll think of the various and different people I met....and new experiences.....
It has been good here.
posted by The Eternal Student @ 4:26 PM
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