The Journal of Truthful Fallacies

A Telling Conversation......

Me: like, i don't know...i am starting to find out how much i am an individual over here.....i don't like to to all the things i am "supposed" to be doing, like clubbing and stuff b/c idk....it just isn't me.
Me: so when i do or say anything diff, i get flack
Friend: hmmm
Me: they keep asking me to club, and i keep saying "no, i don't do that stuff"
Me: but they keep asking, and I am going to have to spaz out something...
Friend: u should try to go its fun
Me: see, this is exactly what i am talking about
Friend: very different
Me: that kind of response
Me: it's like, whatever i want to do, is not good, b/c other want me to do something else....i am really sick of all that. and they try to make me feel like i am missing out on something, when all that i want to do is what I want to do
Friend: well u should try to experiene new things...your only young once....wehn you get older your gonna wish you did something out of the ordinary
Me: no, it is not about that. you, like them are missing the pt, this is not about somone elses conception of "fun" it is about mine..


See, this is the sort of thing I get all the time from my "peers". Why do I constantly need to defend myself to to others? I have never been like any other "normal girl." I don't do the typical things someone my age is "supposed" to be doing....and for that I get shit? For being an individual and attending to my own likes, I get shit from people?
I believe that this kind of issue is what this trip to England has been all about....here I am thinking: "I am going to be independent" and all that jazz, but what I failed to realize, is that I was independent long before I came here....and the real lesson of this 5 month adventure is to come to terms with myself....to accept myself because, essentially, no one else will. Nothing angers me more than to be dealt the hand prescibed by others.I don't like being told what I "should" be doing unless I asked, or in a worse case scenario, appear to be drowning in confusion. But alas, I am none of those things at the moment. Also what I especially do not tolerate, are people who attempt to make me feel bad for not doing what they do or on a grander scale: NOT ACTING LIKE THEM! God forbid I have different interests RIGHT? who the fuck would have ever thought of that one???

I am 21 years old now. I do what I want when I want whenever I choose to. I have been under the impression since I entered college 2 half years ago, that people still believe we are all in college...that life is one big ass collage of popularity contests....but those who act and feel this way need to get a grip... YOU ARE A FUCKING ADULT NOW; GROW THE FUCK UP KIDS!

posted by The Eternal Student @ 9:26 PM